feeling like an npc and having main character syndrome
i regularly catch myself thinking that the world revolves around me, like if someone doesnt reyply to my messages it means that they secretely hate me
but i also feel like an npc (and i still havent proven to myself that his is stupid, which is quite depressing) because i feel like i have no original tgoughts and when i relate to something im just convincing myself that i relate to it but i havent felt that way? im not really good at using words, im not sure if i completely understand what im trying to say. basically when i relate with something i feel like im trying to convince myself that i do so i can be part of the cool people or something... i just explained impostor syndrome i think...
anyway both those things are quite annoying. feeling like the center of everything, and thinking im the most boring person on earth.